John's Blog

15 April 2024

On 23 October 2023, Christine, my wife and partner of 35 years, died.

She taught me so much whilst she was alive and I find it bewildering that, now she is dead, she is still teaching me.

I started a diary when she went into hospital on 17 October 2023 and I have kept it going. 

At the moment, it is an unedited brain dump of memories and thoughts on our life together so I have no intention of inflicting this on the world 'undigested'.  At some stage, I will be strong enough to review what I have written to find, I hope, some greater meanings and even some new truths about how I feel and who I am as a result of happening on this remarkable woman.  Suffice to say that I am not there yet.  

When I am I will find a way to share that journey.

I used to write poems as they occurred to me, more or less on an ad-hoc basis - perhaps between five and ten a year.  I wrote several during the days and months since Chris died.  More recently I have taken to writing a poem every day.  I am up to poem #60 as of yesterday. Sometimes I miss a day and write two the next day to make up the shortfall. 

Several people have wanted to have access to these poems so I have decided to publish them here.  

If you download them or share them, please acknowledge the source.  Thanks.